I have used the analogy of being caught in a rolling snowball to explain what depression is like. But I have found myself caught in one for a while now. I started to feel bad about myself which then caused me to be less productive. I get overwhelmed when I see how much needs to be done, but because I’m feeling bad about myself I don’t get those things done. I start feeling worse because there is so much to do that I am not getting done, but then I put myself down because I am not getting them done. And the cycle continues.
It’s hard to explain this to someone who does not suffer from depression, but for those who do I’m sure you know this all too well. I feel like I’m trying to keep my head above quicksand but I don’t have anything to grab a hold of.